I mean, I don't consistently feel sui, but it comes frequently, but I know how to handle those thoughts and feelings for now, just sometimes I feel like I can't handle things anymore.
But the other day I got rejected from another eating disorder treatment program. A straight up, "no, you can't do IP, you can't do residential, and you can't do PHP here" and this is the third treatment center that said they couldn't take me. I'm out of in person PHP options, even if I drive 1.5 hours one way. The only virtual I applied to is out too.
I did realize how stupid that was when I started showing symptoms so when my stomach was empty and I peed, I drank tap water and had a smoothie with bananas, spinach, milk, and yogurt to raise my potassium a little.
Should I tell my treatment team (they communicate with each other so telling one is telling all) or do I avoid another trip to the psych ward?