Dr. S. - 2 more days and you hit a deadline, if you don't act on it. You still come up on my insurance as being available and taking new clients. I know you are not there anymore or at least not practicing there.

5.5 weeks since last email contact. 3+change months since I last saw you or heard your voice.

I am so angry with you - hate comes to mind. These are still thoughts not feelings. Because I still think it was all my fault. All meaning this pain, letting myself connect, sitting back and waiting for life to return to "normal", not pushing through my walls when I had you here.

I wonder if I should email you and see if there is a way to ease this suffering. I am sure there is, it probably just isn't what I want. It probably doesn't include you.