So I was talking in this group chat and I was trying to ask about people's day and stuff and I got told or implied that all I do is talk about myself. When I asked about other people's life I got shut down brutally and told "sure you do". It just compounded all the feelings I ever felt about friends about them being fake friends or really hurting me by using my past against me. Then I started crying and remembered the time I told someone I loved them and I could hear them tell their friends that they hated me. I could really attribute that to being the reason why I don't approach people or really get close to anyone but what hurts the most is being misunderstood. I feel like no-one understands me and I wonder why I even try but this was a group chat. I can say that it's very much like that in my real life to that when I talk to someone they only seem to point out my flaws it hurts and makes me want to isolate further. I also feel like I struggle to communicate with people that when I try to tell my mental health professionals my problem I say it in the wrong way and never get the help. It's hard and it hurts. I want it to stop hurting but it never does. It never gets easier to approach people either because I feel like they'll always hurt me. I left both group chats I don't want to talk to people like that. Tho I know in real life it's pretty much the same I feel like I don't know how to connect myself to anyone and it leaves me feeling confused.