Okay, I will schedule an appointment with a psychiatrist. I didn't see this as self-sabotage. I guess my whole thing is that medication can only help so much, I've been on the same medication for a couple years now. My therapist mentioned that it can stop being as effective over time. I have my mind set on not being on medication forever and that I need to make personal changes in my thinking and behaviors to see real changes. And to answer your previous question, I am still an AI Trainer, I just didn't have any work for a few weeks which is a part of gig work and was scary. @Tart Cherry Jam