I had to shovel the driveway yesterday and the snow was so heavy! I could only do half a shovel at a time, I couldn't even push much snow.

My arms and back are hurting, it's from the gym and shoveling. That's a good kind of pain I guess but still a pain.

I had a really strange dream about my depression. My pdoc was saying that the way I feel is the way I'm supposed to feel and that not even ECT would help me. It was a very realistic dream.

I guess the dream is a manifestation of my fear that I won't find a treatment that works for me.