I have a huge case of hypersomnia. I slept 12 hours last night and then took a 4 hour nap this afternoon. I honestly could go to sleep again now but I think 6:30 is a bit early.

I was upset about my birthday plans being messed up the last time I posted. It worked out probably the best it could. We had a laid back afternoon spent mostly playing games and laughing, even me. My nieces and I didn't even get out of our pajamas all day. Then we watched a movie and I came home and enjoyed the silence. Today I don't feel like laughing but I'm so glad I had one day I was able to pull myself out of this tar pit for a while. If you enjoy games look for "Taco, cat, goat, cheese, pizza". It is about $7 and it hilarious. I found it on a list of "things preteens will love" before Christmas and the pre-teen loved it as did the teenager and 4 adults.


Today I am reminded that the depression is here and frustrating and my real birthday won't be so much fun probably. In fact I know it won't be because my mom is going to come over and help me catch up on housework. Which I really appreciate but I can't do that while sleeping so it will be hard.


I really hope my increased AD dose helps soon. Tomorrow is technically a week since I increased it but I forgot to change my patch on Tuesday so really Wednesday is the one week mark.

I haven't heard anything about my CBC for clozaril. It's past time for a refill. I have extra because of my dose being lowered. But it won't last forever. I'm not getting a response from my pdoc's secretary which is really unusual. I don't know what to do or think. The pharmacy claims to have reached out twice which I actually believe since I've had no answer either. I don't see her until 2/12 so that's way too long to wait. I don't know what to do. It's stressing me out.

Oh well. Everything will work out eventually.