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Old Jan 14, 2024, 11:15 PM
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Member Since: May 2012
Location: North Carolina, USA. Originally New York
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Heard from my husband for the first time since he disappeared on one of his all-nighters. He acted like it was nothing, as usual. Every day I am falling a little more out of love with him as I am getting used to reality of what type of person he is versus the man I thought I married. Living on my own is hard - still getting used to the storms here by myself without being scared. Sometimes I get manic crying fits? I don't know if that is a way to describe it. Where I just bawl my eyes out like it's the end of the world to one of the songs we used to listen to together.

It is still really difficult as this reality sets in. Had to travel an hour for my meds today because Walgreens refilled it in my old town and couldn't transfer it close by. As much as it is an inconvenience, I enjoyed the drive as it helped me get outside of my head for a little while. Sometimes God has things planned for me that I don't see for myself. Still sleeping less even with my CPAP. It's probably all the loneliness i feel.
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