Thanks for the quick replies.

I kind of feel like I'm losing it. Maybe anxiety? I just feel lost and irritated and antsy and like I'm searching, searching, searching and not finding what I need. This is a time I would usually call T, we would talk, and there would be a chance that I'd figure out what my deal was and start to feel better. Or at least feel heard.

I don't want to have a hard time while he's gone. I don't have really bad times THAT often and the timing of this sucks. I don't know what to do to feel better.