My relationship with Porn has been love/hate over the years. Religious beliefs aside, I thought I would always be "punished" by looking at porn and masturbating. I still feel the guilt and I don't watch porn nearly as often as I used to, but the dopamine shot that I felt afterwards became the real addiction. I have found other pleasures beyond the porn, and got to enjoy sex again, (amazingly), but the dirty secret I always had still haunts me to this day. Sure, there have been erotic roleplays, and "classier" versions of porn more related to erotica that can be pleasurable, but the release that it gives feels like such a relief, especially if you've had a long stressful day.

There are so many arguments about it, but there are so many doctors who would say masturbation is healthy and we shouldn't demonize it. It's a big conflict that I deal with though, and a line in the sand that is hard to understand what is good and bad.