The video showed how they struggle to love their children. I was amazed, thinking my mom was accepting the fact that she is narcissistic and that she finds it tough to empathise with people. Turns out she meant my dad is the narcissist. And she had meant to send it to my sister. This was really painful that she feeding such lies to my sister. It is so heartbreaking to watch. My sister doesn’t talk to my dad much. She is under the impression that me and my dad are selfish narcissists. This is something that my mother had told her. My friends believe I’m a nice person. Three of my friends have stopped talking to me ever since I set boundaries regarding what’s acceptable. People don’t like boundaries. It is perfectly alright for people to dislike you. But when it’s your own mother, it hurts. And my sister.
My sister is getting married in December. After she leaves for Germany, my mother may feel vulnerable since my sister was her only support. Of course, they will continue to speak on call about how monstrous my dad is, and how I am his carbon copy. I have started going to therapy. Currently she is helping me with my routine. I have made a morning routine and am working on the rest of the day’s routine. I plan to study and journal. There’s a catch- my mom comes home and tends to verbally attack me then, since I am most vulnerable then and can’t walk out of the house. Let’s see what happens.