Trust me @seesaw I am astounded at my shockingly dangerous carelessness at not pulling my door in all the way. Not defending it, but that morning I was really late to work, and I just didn't pull it closed hard enough, which trust me, after that incident I take the extra time and not only pull it completely closed from now on but go ahead and lock the top lock too. And him ending up in my apartment was just incredible since he was dropped off by the sheriff, especially since I had an involuntary commitment order done on him because I was in danger. I absolutely called the hospital he was in and gave them an earfull for just releasing him and not notifying anyone, the audacity!

As much as I want to hold on to the belief that he can hopefully change, (maybe in the future because he doesn't seem like he has any intention to now), I need to do what's best for myself these days. As hard as it is, I need to remember that my enabling nature and low self-esteem is what had me so long in this marriage. The realization of this has been eye-opening for sure. So thankful for my parents too, I couldn't imagine how I could have gotten through this with them.