Thank you all.

My mom was my one and only support in my family. We had such a conflicted relationship and she was taken so suddenly from the world. I didn't have the chance to say goodbye, or to tell her I love her...

And it seems like no one else even knows in my family. I'm an only child, so I have no sibs to turn to for support. Just me and my dad. I asked him what today was, and he said, "Uh... Flag Day?" And this literally right after having talked about her death, which he does way too often for my comfort. He was talking about Tim Russert, RIP, who apparently had an enlarged heart, and started asking me if that might be how my mom died. I kept yelling him and saying it was COPD, mainly, but he just kept talking about the day she died, how she was struggling; I couldn't be there at the hospital cuz I was passed out in an Ambien coma.... I feel sick....

I don't know what to do... I think I'm just gonna curl up in bed for a while.

Thanks,



J