I lost my aunt last week. We were very close. I cried for days before funeral and then at the funeral it was almost embarrassing that I just couldn’t stop with snots and tears running. Then I could not stop after. Today is the first day I didn’t cry. Yet. But now I feel depressed and cannot get anything done. I am a mess and i don’t have any diagnosis. Give yourself a break and do something gentle and kind for yourself. Or watch something light and uplifting.