I still don't have a t neither does V. I'm less mad about Victoria not meeting SAP and getting kicked out of school. I wasn't mad at her because she tried and struggled to the very end. Now we have to figure out how to pay school off. She's halfway through the program it'll take a year and a half to finish but she doesn't want to go back for a year. She wants to work on a personal projects. She's talked about making money but I think she is a long way to go for that. I just wish school hadn't costed so much.

So I'm not as angry, I have to go up on my latuda more and if that doesn't help we're back to the drawing board. I'm just not thrilled to do that. I'm still not doing anything or self care but that's whatever. I'm trying to save money but that's not happening. I want to spend that money on myself for an art program. I want to buy V Coursera for the year. I want to redo Christmas and move to a new apartment. Because they're looking at cons I have to buy a wheelchair plus a tub chair basically lots of expenses not enough money. Oh well it'll get done slowly. I was really concerned about V but she seems to be taking not going to school better than I expected. It helps that she didn't fail she just couldn't keep on pace. I just wanted us to be in a better situation.