I don't even know where to post - I could post in any number of the other forums probably, but this one is familiar to me, so I hope it's okay.

I feel SO PENT UP. I made myself go sit and be quiet for a while to see what the hell I'm feeling. I keep thinking that what I'm feeling is the years and years of screaming, and crying, and fighting back, and hitting, and running that I could never do. Is that even possible? That's it's all just IN THERE? I feel like nothing I can do will ever ever ever make me feel better. I just want to do something really really bad to make the feeling go away.

Does anyone else feel like this? What can I do to feel better? I really need help. I really do.

(I edited to add the trigger icon. I don't know what's triggering and what's not. I'm sorry)