I've got some more mania type warning signs still. Just like last night, I could not stop talking to my roommate once she got home (and I'm usually rather quiet). My brain is also moving pretty quickly and some demon paranoia kicked in when I was walking outside after dark. The weird new symptoms is me wanting to suddenly spend money. Before last month, this never used to be something I experienced.

I see my pdoc on Tuesday and my PCP at the beginning of Feb. Even though I don't see this as the ideal treatment route, I think I will talk with both of them about a less common treatment option for women. Apparently, some women benefit for using the same meds used for birth control to help stabilize their moods because the med can be used to help control the impact hormone shifts have on mood symptoms. This option would also come with its own side effects/risks of course but, with how much worse my depressive episodes and dangerous thoughts get each time I experience rapid cycling, it might be worth a shot since my body responds so poorly to so many meds and I need to put a stop to things before they get to bad.

I also need to read up on abilify a little more since my pdoc brought that up as a possibility before we attempted to add tegretol to my med plan.