I have and having recently admitting myself, and seeing a person to help me network, it did not prove very fruitful, as anything counseling or mental health related is very backed up here. Waiting lists can have a 2+ year expectancy time frame. Its not a option to jump right into at the moment.

I do not know what your talking about to be honest. I sort of just went through motions. I gravitated to those I guess would be considered toxic. And it shows. Maybe I despised myself when I was younger and it grew into self depreciation and self sabotage. Gender dysphoria, trauma, dealing with family, etc... its all I had. My personality is very cookie cutter generic. I am not overly intelligent. I have been compared to in the past to Siri or Google assistant only they can do what I did better and more accurate. With as generic as I am, its easy to phase in the background. Not to mention having weak social skills and bad decision making with friendships.

I think I am at a point where I don't want to better anything. I don't see much of any benefits to do so. Humans are the downfall of human kind. We will always let each other down as our own survival will take precedence. I hate being a human myself and often feel extreme shame when its in the back of my mind.

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