It's a matter of perspective, mentality and the direction you ALLOW your thoughts to go. We can CHOOSE to see life very negatively and ourselves negatively, or we can choose to see things from a far more positive light. This is part of what I was getting at. The other part was to help you see that you can form healthy relationships.. you have to be open to that though. And now you have room to do so since you severed many toxic friendships. It allows room to meet more like minded and healthier people for yourself.