I was in therapy for 20yrs...that was 4yrs ago now.. I can relate to most of your post .. Did it cure me? Was it worth it?
It's a strange thing... Much like the twilight zone... I think what it did do was make me emotionally more resilient... But there's a bit of a sting in the tail with the whole process too... Do I regret it? No... For me it was something I had to do, enjoyed it at the time too.. But the relationship still leaves me feeling a bit lost as to what it really was at times... But T was professional at all times. Went above and beyond at times... So when I'm feeling angry at her for not being here now... That soon disiptates when I remember how kind she was... There were benefits... Maybe not as in your face as I expected... But subtle more life lasting benefits that even more surprise when a rection I have isn't the same as the ones I had before therapy .. Sorry for he disjointed ramble