I am terribly frustrated and scared as I am sure my boyfriend has this disorder. I keep looking up personality disorders on line because I know something is just not right with him and paranoid personality disorder unfortunately is describing everything I am going through with him. I am in such a mess right now and don't know what to do. I have never experienced anything like this before with a relationship. It is not an easy relationship to get out of either. Hoping to find someone to talk to and explain in detail some experiences with advice from someone who can relate. It's a rollercoaster ride everyday and I don't know what mood or emotion I'm going to get. Or what I did wrong this time or what I'm being accused of now. It is so scary. Some days I'm scared to leave my apartment or talk on the phone or with people out in public because then "I am up to something " I wonder about him having bipolar too? I really don't know as I have never delt with someone with a mental disorder and I am sure I am safe to say that is what is going on here. He'll say he talks with people who have said things about me and what I have said or done but he can never tell me exactly who these "people" are and it is hard to believe also because he can be so antisocial and not even look at people. Not outgoing at all so it always floors me when he says people seek him out to tell him "things" about me and he finds me untrustworthy etc.
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