@CANDC

Thank you for your input.
For the moment I am still perplex.

She did not reach out the whole day, our last exchanges were that I reached out in two hours like a fool asking how could you let me leave? And she replied: are you trying to make me feel guiltier that I feel or make me think again about what I've said? I replied: I wanted you to realize I am going and I feel like you let me go. She didn't reply anymore, just seen.

So at the moment, the sadness is slowly transcending into anger. Anger on the situation I am right now.