Hi Kittymom and welcome to PC. I can relate to some of the things you're going through (although not exactly), please don't feel bad that there are people worse off than you. I know it's easy to say and I feel that way too, but at the end of the day you are not happy and believing you do not have a 'right' to feel the way you do puts you in a vicious circle, everyone has feelings and different things affect people in different ways.
It's hard being ill, especially when it's 'on and off'. I think that's the one of the main reasons for my depression so I can sympathise with you. I've learnt to try and concentrate more on when I am (better/healthy?) and try and do more enjoyable things at those times.

I know it's hard, but the best thing to do is to try and do more things, even if it's just walks? If it's not too far maybe you can walk to work or cycle? I'm glad you've found PC, I've found it extremely helpful and supportive and I hope you do too.

I hope you do well with your interviews, Molly