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Originally Posted by RDMercer
It's not only bipolar that can create those feelings. Some of us (like me) have extended ourselves beyond our own healthy boundaries and get sucked into our partner's lives and disarray. The breaking of that can feel traumatic. I'll never forget the night everything came to a head for me and the kids. I'm thankful my son was driving, because we were driving around and talking about getting them out. I was in the back seat, and when I finally said, "OK, we do this. We have to work together, and I have to get you out," it was like a hand reaching into my chest and grabbing my heart. The pain, the unreal pain, of letting go of something I had pursued and enmeshed myself with for so long was just..... I remember bending over in the back seat of the car and wailing, just full-on wailing, like I'd just traumatically lost a loved one. You went through something similar at church at Christmas.
It gets easier. You'll find yourself again.
RDM
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RDMercer you have no idea how much I relate to this. Not only Christmas, (so honored that you remembered that), but just this morning at church. I know people were probably looking me but I was literally weeping while the service was going on. I was such a mess. But being around all those people, (a nice lady gave me a warm hug) really made me believe that I am going to get through this.
Thanks so much again for your continued support, and I know you will come out better for all of this in your situation too. Hope today was a good day for you.
