I know how you felt, I've been there many time myself, but my husband helps me out a little. I'm now going to group with other people who are going through the same thing. But please don't ever hurt yourself and seek help when you get that way again, people care about you and need you around for a very long time. Go do something special for yourself and try to enjoy it.

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