How are you doing today KasperBlue?
I can’t answer your questions, but I have noticed sometimes many people can back away at the mention of trauma, maybe because they’re scared. In my life I’ve observed this.
This might be something you’ve already tried or considered but crisis helplines can be a listening ear, the people who staff them are trained to deal with traumatic situations and so it’s possibly better than opening up to someone untrained who isn’t mentally prepared to hear what you’re telling them.
Friendships, even without deeper confiding, can be a complicated dance and I’m still learning about that myself. It’s not easy at all I agree.