Today I had a follow up Zoom interview with an anthropology graduate that I aided in her research on online memorials back in 2018.

Of course, the conversation back then was all about Chris. It seems like an act of serendipity from the universe itself that she got in touch last night, when today 'marks' 17 years since Chris and I last spoke.



It didn't feel right to enter into that discussion without 'updating' her on my current griefscape.

I pre-emptively answered a question that she didn't ask, about why I don't have a similar online memorial for Steve.

Well, I do, but it's not 'live'...it's not something I can add to.

I think me doing something like that would hurt too many people.

Perhaps that's something we could talk about on Thursday, as I wrestle with the issue of whether I can even remember Steve in the same way...