I haven't been on here in a while. I was doing super well for the most part for the past two months but going back to school this week which meant a change in my routine has caused me to spiral again. I just feel super depressed and manic and today marks 4 months of being sober from drugs which I am really proud of but almost ruined that the other day because of my current state. I'm doing something that is for my greater good so it makes me angry that I am reacting in this way. I'm still doing my school work though and showing up for work so that is good but I just feel like im on auto pilot trying to do the bare minimum to get by.