Earthmama, sometimes I feel that way too and the one thing that seems to help me is to flip through magazines and without thinking about it too much I rip (the act of ripping vs cutting for some reason is therapeutic for me) pictures/words out. Then I put the pieces together in a collage. It's amazing how a certain mood comes through in the collage even though I may not know exactly what I'm literally feeling. By creating I feel like I'm releasing it. I'm not much of an artist but it really helps. I did one yesterday and although it didn't make sense yesterday today it makes tons of sense. I'm planning on bringing it to my next T session. Just an idea...I hope you find peace soon.