My pdoc appointment moved again. It's now mid-Feb.

I have been working on myself physically - trying to improve my muscles and coordination. I have a long way to go but I am seeing small improvements.

Still feeling anxious and depressed. I'm trying to think my way out but I can't argue with a significant anxiety attack that causes racing thoughts, sweating, racing heart, tense muscles, etc.

I learned a lot of good coping and CBT skills in IOP last summer. I often reread the notes and think of the sessions I participated in. But it doesn't stand up well against the reality of depression and anxiety. I think I understand them but then they pop up in random ways and places and I find I'm stuck. Just venting I guess.