the very life has been "sucked" out of me... it was like the hornet sting.. that I got on Thurs.. sitting there minding my own business.. in the MD''s waiting room.. and it came up from the chair arm and stung me..

still.. hot.. and swollen...

and this event... about a year ago.. something happened.. to bring it to my attention... and wham... I am... stung.. in pain... the hornet sting.. and the event the same.... pain...terrible.. pain.. without warning...

and... I am not a baby.. I am allergic to the hornet.. so.. it has been.. bad all weekend.. my doctor.. didn't care enough to call.. to find out how I was..

I hate.. this person that hurt me a year ago... can't do anything about it... isn't fair.. my life damaged.. their life ok...

gezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...... what is this world we live in??????

what makes... me such a terrible failure...

(may God.. allow me to join Him soon if you care for me.. pray.. and ask God.. that I may be allowed to be with him soon.. very soon)..