but that never works. and in the morning I just feel worse and very physically unwell.

When does it get better.

I'm for sure not in the right state of mind though.

I've even thought of detranstioning. Yeah. I'm not right in the head. I can't detransition though because I had my ovaries removed. So I have to stay on my testetreone for life.

I know I'm just talking crazy. But idk....