If you are taking those ridiculous amounts of meds trying to harm yourself you NEED to reach out and get help. Your brain is all messed up for the med changes and it sounds like you need something to calm it down.


The crisis line is 988 or you can text hi to 741741.


Just do that before you are tempted to take so much medication.

I think you also need to consider if having a pdoc you are seeing face to face would be a good idea. I would really question my pdoc if she took me off 2 meds at once without a really slow taper. I've been on and on a LOT of meds and she has never done that to me.

Please, reach out.