You have a right to grieve. Grieving is a process and everyone does it differently. It’s actually normal to experience these lows that you are sharing. When we love someone deeply it’s very hard to accept how the other person doesn’t feel the same way or respect it.

Everything you have shared is pretty normal. You gave your heart to someone who did not appreciate or respect it. Yet, this is how she is as a person, something you have been slowly learning about. Please know that anyone else will just be used so there is no genuine caring on her part.

Her type typically just goes from one guy to the next as she is all about her own needs and ego. Sadly her own children know this about her.