I'm so mad at myself because despite the fact that i am sick with depression, i still agreed to help my neighbor. It was a short task, but required many decisions and i found it unpleasant and tiresome, and i'm sorry that i agreed to help. It's a neighbor that has helped me out many times in the past, especially with my dog, so i guess i felt i should make a special effort for her.

But these past few months i've taken my dog for her appointments in a cab, so i didn't have to deal with this neighbor. It's more expensive, of course. But i don't feel up to socializing, and i don't want to be more indebted to her.

I guess all i can do is be more wary of agreeing to help her in the future.

At this point, i've given her my ticket to the immersive Van Gogh exhibit when i could not attend, and helped her with her computer, and done this most recent task for her. So i feel i've done a fair bit for her, and i am no longer asking for her help with my dog, so hopefully she won't think it's insensitive if i turn her down for help from now on. She rarely asks for help, so i am probably belaboring this for nothing.

Thanks for reading. Just had to get this off my chest. It's so hard having good values! They are sometimes such a drag!