So turns out an accurate dx DOES matter. I got fed up with mental health in NH and drove down to Boston and umm got 18 staples and an actual work up. Turns out my main dx is DID/CPTSD. They think I might have bipolar (not schizoaffective) as well but the psychosis is totally drug related and I’ve told them about last year and they said yup reactions to being retraumatized and intoxicated not mood episode sounding. It was so easy to talk and be honest and not feel judged or shameful or guilty and actually be UNDERSTOOd with these guys.

Looking to move out of state, probably to mass where there are ****ing programs and trains n **** for trauma therapy.