I’m at work this morning and I do better here. Even tho I’m old enough to retire , I know I need the structure and friends I have here now. I have this feeling if I retired I would deteriorate. My wife saw our therapist this am. I’m guessing she talked to him about helping us structure a divorce in a way easiest for all of us. Really don’t know. Just know we can’t seem to move forward in anything close to a positive way. I’m glad my kids are grown.