I am feeling more physical withdrawls today. I'm really exhausted mainly. I haven't been very hungry. I ate a couple bananas and a can of tuna and drank a couple sodas and a small iced matcha but that was it. Therapy went fine. She agreed that the up and down sleep patterns, nightmares, night sweats, nausea, the throwing up the other night, and mental health stuff were all just withdrawel side effects. She also said my weight gain seemed to have come from the prestiq.

I went down to 25mil Lamictal tonight. The thing on my thighs look ok after I put a bunch of stuff on it last night.

Mainly today I'm just super super exhausted and not hungry

I got myself out of bed and I did a half hour workout with my VR headset I was sweating and out of breath afterwards. After I forced myself to eat a piece of bread with a tablespoon of that Smuckers Goober peanut butter jelly combo stuff. We're having baked chicken for dinner but I'm still not hungry and its getting late.

I feel a lot better now after working out. I swear I'm not joking when I say my mental health is my weight.

My pdoc told me to increase my therapy and to workout and I thought he was just being a dismissive jerk.... but his suggestions have helped.