@Tart Cherry Jam - He can be very cruel, but I always make excuses for his illness when he is like that, and I NEED to stop doing that for the sake of my own mental health and peace of mind.

Thanks for letting me know that about the compliance piece. I didn't sleep with my machine AGAIN last night, and I don't really have a reason for it, other than I had a bad episode and just ripped off the mask and rolled over and went to sleep. I slept HORRIBLY and woke up with my head in a total fog.

Really suffering these days. I went to bed at 1am and woke up at 4am then finally at 6am. I will try again with the CPAP tonight- I just need to get in a peaceful place to be comfortable enough to sleep with it.