I shared a song with my therapist that she listened to in between sessions. Today when I saw her she brought it up straight away; told me she listened to it and asked me questions about it. It is a song that has a lot themes around closeness vs distance. Often when I would listen to it I would imagine T listening to it as well and imagine her gaining this deeper understanding of me and it would help me feel closer to her when we were apart. But I didn’t feel any of that today. Somehow T’s response fell short of expectations even though she didn’t do anything wrong. I feel like maybe I would have felt that way no matter what she said. It’s so frustrating to long so badly for closeness but then as soon as I’m in the room with her I want to keep her out. I also fear she doesn’t like me and that I’m doing something to cause this which will result in the therapy ending somehow. I dunno but I think it is related somehow?