Update on my TMI situation....

I took a couple of stool softeners and it looks like that, along with lots of water, did the trick. I definitely got injured internally - it's not a hemorrhoid - it's quite painful. I'll spare you all of the other details. Thanks for your support!

My anxiety is under control only when I take Klonopin or CBD a bunch of times throughout the day (I take Klonopin just once a day).

Depression is still there. I'm trying to motivate myself to get back into doing the things I used to like.

I go to the gym tomorrow and in the evening I'm heading 2 hours drive north to see what a dark sky looks like. Winter is a great time for stargazing because the air is clear.