Slept for solid 12 hours. Date **** drugging myself makes my heart beat weirdly, so I can't do that anymore - I thought I'd be able to just take sips while socializing this summer instead of using alcohol, oh well..

Vyvanse and phenibut now, and I will try to organize my life..

Mostly good days recently. I became so suicidal for so long that my mind broke, and now I'm okay.