I applied for another job yesterday. This is the 3rd job I've applied to. I get I have a 4 year gap and stuff. But I have worked at 2 other jobs that are pretty much identical to this one. I'm not in a crisis or anything regarding money and stuff. But I want to work.

Today was ok. I had to buy some stuff and I went to several stores and I was really pissed off at prices and sizes and what they had in stock and what fit. Finally I got an iced tea and while my mom ran into the library I did some meditation type **** and I calmed down and I went to Target and got everything I needed.

I came home at noon and the withdrawels are ok today but they are still there. My stomach just is bothering me right now and I'm blowing out a bunch of reddish brown gunk.