Thanks you two. It's nice to know I was missed by you. It's been so long that I wouldn't be surprised if I was totally forgotten by some.
I talked with T about the flashbacks today and that I am, for the first time ever, showing emotion surrounding them. Before they were merely memories that I would repeat over and over again with sheer numbness....almost as though it were about someone else.
It is scary to think that I am going to have to feel more emotion like that in order to "heal".

My BF and I are getting along so well. He is helping out with some bills with the money he makes off of CafePress, so that is positive....he's trying! LOL

Thanks again for not forgetting about me and posting back...
How are you doing?

BJ