Can we talk dissociation pretty please?
I will spare you the life story but I am currently freaking out due to my usual fears of being a big liar / faker and I really really need the validation I will possibly get from you guys in order to be able to engage in therapy

So what does dissociation feel like to you in session? Do you
1) completely check out and go blank, like you forgot your body is still there and that your T can still see it because you got so uncomfortable that your mind left and you stay like that until your T tells you that you’re ‘gone’ ?
Or
2) Can you talk and act sort of normally but you are extremely spacey and not really taking anything in? Kind of hearing things are being said but not processing it at all and having to ask for things to be repeated ?

My T calls what she is observing when 1) happens, dissociation (but I have my doubts) and has said that 2) is my brain protecting me (without calling it dissociation)

Please share if you experience anything similar to either or if you experience it differently. Thank you so much ❤️