Depends on the type of dissociation. Depersonalization feels like I’m disconnected from myself and nothing is really coming in/out. I might talk but it’s just “from the neck up” there is no presence of emotions. I walk out wondering what we even talked about.

I also experience hypnotizability and then I don’t talk or listen and it’s a total waste of time unless my y successfully grounds me out of that state.

If I’ve switched usually in therapy my hyperthymic part comes out and she thinks I’m manic when really it’s just her temperament. Sometimes the part that holds the shame comes out and there’s a lot of crying and “it’s not your fault”s. It doesn’t get through.

We’re doing DBT for half the session to reduce dissociation and trying to learn about the system with hopes that we’ll be less shattered the other half of the session now. Made a lot of progress since getting an accurate dx.