I'm sorry, Scarlet.

I know how painful it is to reach out and be left wanting.

Perhaps it's worth having a conversation about your needs and fears around contact between sessions, and what L can offer at the moment.

I hear your fear, and that's valid.

For me, an acknowledgement of my messages to R is better than nothing, but it doesn't always meet that connection need in the same way.

I hope you can take the step to be honest about what you need.

Of course, feel free to disregard this post if it's not helpful.

Take care,

Lost