I haven't heard back from the job I applied to yet and I'm worried my pdoc won't put me on Wellbutrin if I'm starting a new job because "we don't want to do too many changes at one time."

The thing is I'm struggling terribly right now and I haven't slept good in awhile and I need another med so badly before I go totally insane

My endocronolgist can't see me until April. I see my therapist this afternoon.

Is working a 4AM job when you can't sleep well at night a good thing to do anyways?

Was this even smart to begin with or did I do something stupid applying to this job because of my bipolar?

My mom thinks I'm still having withdrawels from the prestiq and lamictal. I guess its possible. I've only been fully off them since Sunday. I know my antibiotic is still making me feel sick but my sinus infection is ok at least.

I feel kinda like I'm a danger to myself. Like not right now, not really, But if I were to accept this job I'd be kinda concerned about my safety....

Idk. I need to see my therapist. And my pdoc.

But I'm not sure this is a good idea based on my symptoms and the thoughts I'm having

Considering I haven't even heard from them maybe I'll luck out and they won't even hire me. But I'm not in a good place tbh and I hope my therapist doesn't send me IP.