I wish I had a legit reason to go IP right now. Last night someone threatened me for a pair of fking socks. Granted I have two pairs of super nice socks someone gave to me, but now it’s just one, and they’re wet af right now from walking in the snow. Anyway before bedtime I left and just slept in my car. Got cold last night too. Went into a Dunks to warm up and take a piss in the morn’ and couldn’t pee because someone was shooting up in the bathroom. 🙃

Tried getting in touch with an online therapist who says she’ll do texts/messages and whatever kind of appointment she can. Still waiting to hear back.

I keep getting these intense SI thoughts, although I realize this situation is temporary I still have doubts as to whether I will be able to live the life I want after the trauma I’ve been through.