Ugh. My pdoc increased my gabapentin so I was to take 1200 mg at 8:30 and 800 mg at 11 pm. I took a few days to build up to 800 because I didn't want to be knocked out but I was taking it as a PRN when I couldn't sleep every night anyway. l finally gave in and took it and had a wonderful night of sleep. The next night sleep was harder but I still slept without PRN. Since then it's just gotten worse even with my PRN dose. I think I need more AP but it has to be really bad before my pdoc prescribes more because my level still isn't in the normal range (just close to it) and we don't want that to go back up. I have a feeling I'm going to need even more gabapentin. Which is fine, I've been on more, but I hesitate to trust my abilities to drive once I'm on anymore than this. I can't imagine I'm not going to get groggy sometime soon.


I'm so frustrated. I have been feeling a little bit better but I have to sleep for that to work out. And to make it worse last night I forgot to get fresh Emsam patches out of the closet and put there where I can put them on. Missing a day isn't really a big deal as they have a long half-life. But tonight's patch stuck to my pajamas or something and is pulling loose. It won't make it through the night. So I'm going to be running slightly low on that level and I really need that level to be good.

I keep telling myself that this is not as bad as last year. I know that. But I'm just so tired of fighting to do everything. I just want to sleep for about 3 days solid and wake up and be all better. Someone tell my fairy godmother please?