I'm Wiltingflowwr and I chose that name because I feel like a picked flower barely hanging on with my end eminent. I feel consumed by deep dark sadness and I cry so much, I'm no longer taking care of myself, not sleeping or eating, not maintaining my personal hygiene. When I'm not bursting with tears I feel like a zombie. I do not want to adultify my children, I don't want them to deal with the anxiety and embarrassment of small town gossip while I slowly loose control. I'm here because I need a lifeline. I need some place to say how afraid, trapped and alone I feel. I need help surviving my days, any stories, tips, trucks, resources, ideas I'm open I can not go out like this not while my children are watching.